Looking for a specific fic where Sam discloses his feelings to Dean, who rejects him. He then sneaks out the window and begins leading a life of crime.

He never has sex because he sees Dean's disgusted face every time. He has the nickname "the ghost" and has amassed quite a fortune - in the fic he drives all sorts of fancy cars. He kills YED with the Colt, then Bella wants to buy it from him. When Dean finally confesses his feelings, Sam doesn't believe him.

I know I'm gonna kick myself for this one!

Thanks in advance for the help!

FOUND: Learning to Breathe by jassy3399.
Thanks vinylreckoning!