FOUND: by the speedy and awesome equally_dour : Stumbling Toward Something Real penned by Allie Quixotic

I'm looking for a story and it's driving me nuts!!!

It's J2 --an old fic i think-- and if I remember correctly, Jensen dumps his loser OC boyfriend (who spent all his money on other guys and blow). Jensen reaches out to Jared in his time of need, despite the fact that he doesn't like to feel needy and vulnerable, but Jared's with Sandy (or Gen? but I think it was Sandy) at the time and feels like he should put some distance between them for the sake of his relationship. He has feelings for Jensen he thinks he shouldn't. Jensen starts drinking more and more to escape his reality and it quickly spirals out of control.

There was a scene with Jensen's family, where his dad has some choice words for Jensen and we realize that this is the root of his feelings of worthlessness, addiction and acceptance of rotten behavior from his ex. I remember it being well-written, realistic and angsty, but not melodramatic.

I want to re-read it and leave the author some feedback in appreciation, so I'd love it so much if you guys would help me out. Thanks in advance. :)