First time posting so I hope that I do it correctly.

I'm looking for any fic about when Dean comes back from hell and is struggling not to be evil -- fighting all the stuff they programmed into his head even though he secretly misses it -- while trying to keep it from Sam (or Castiel or whoever.)

OR

Any fic about Dean back from Hell and is mentally ill because of it. Trying to remain "normal" for everyone else, but clearly remaining effected by the whole experience. (PTSD, DID, etc.)

If I'm not explaining it very well, a great example of my second request is Empty Spaces by splashnbash

Gen or Slash. Would read any pairing. (D/C is my favorite though)