Looking for two fics, any help would be greatly appreciated.

One is where John leaves Dean and Sam with a hunter and he sexually abuses Dean. When Dean calls his dad John misunderstands and tells Dean not to be lazy/weak. When the boys run away to Bobby's because the abuser wanted Sam, John realizes the truth and is guilty. Anyone know it?

The second is an eventual wincest fic, where Dean and Sam are raised apart but somehow know each other via phone calls without knowing they're brothers. Sam is an artist and his art is throughout the chapters, he's also gay and in love with Dean?

I can't for the love of me find either so any help would be awesome!