I’m looking for 2 specific Sam/Dean fics that I read several years ago.

The first is a genderswap story where teenaged/early-20’s Dean gets changed into a girl permanently/semi-permanently.  He and Sam were together before Dean got changed into a girl, but refuses to sleep with her afterwards, not because he isn’t attracted to her, but because it somehow feels more wrong.  I believe the fic started out when Dean was already a girl, and he’s adjusted to it surprisingly well…painting her toenails and wearing short skirts, and going out to bars to flirt with guys.  Which eventually prompts Sam to get over his hang-ups and get back together with Dean. Still looking for this one...

The second fic I’m looking for took place during season 4.  It was Sam POV and had Sam thinking about how Dean wasn’t strong enough after Hell to stop the apocalypse, not like Sam was.  But it was more like Sam wanting Dean to just stop and let Sam take care of things and admit how weak he was so that Sam could protect him.  In the end I think there was some crossdressing where Sam got Dean to dress in women’s clothes so that he could see how delicate and fragile he was, though I don’t remember if it was a full dress or just underwear.  I don’t think it was dark!Sam exactly, but as I recall he had a somewhat unbalanced feel to him.  I think there was a lot of guilt for not saving Dean from hell and needing to protect him now.  I have no idea if it was an established relationship or first time. FOUND! Link in comments.

Do either of these sound familiar to anyone?