I'm looking for a very sweet brotherlove fic I lost the link to when my computer crashed. Sweet, but heavy and traumatic at the same time, of course. It is NOT a Wincest fic. If that's what tickles your pickle, more power to you, but please do not point me in anything that direction. The story starts with the boys investigating multiple, seemingly related suicides. They come across one in progress, and Dean unsuccessfully tries to talk the kid off a ledge. The boy either jumps or somehow falls, and is killed. Dean falls as well, and is stopped but injured by a tree branch (or some sort of natural structure). The boy was haunted and/or possessed by something that feeds upon a person's guilt and claims/draws on their souls to maintain itself. It was demon-esque, but I don't think it was actually a demon. I don't remember what they called it, I think maybe it wasn't even something that was ever in a show. It's not something that can be exorcised of gotten rid of with a typical salt n' burn. Anyway, the spirit possesses Dean, or haunts him, something like that. Dean becomes very ill from the shoulder wound he got in the fall being infected, and from the effect of the spirit.

As Dean's guilt amplifies even more than baseline, he makes a confession to Sam. He is hesitant, saying he's afraid Sam will leave him. The story is about a girl named Hannah, who had been a friend of Jessica's from Stanford. She worked at a place that had Winchester in the title, Winchester Mansion or something. Dean was investigating a case, and Hannah was accidentally killed. She was knocked from a window or balcony, and Dean tried to save her but couldn't hold on. Sam is very angry and does leave. He feels guilty and returns quickly, but Dean is already gone. Sam has a vision of Dean killing (shooting) himself [which he spirit tells him he has to do for Sammy's sake.]

~~{{Plot and ending spoilers from here on out!}}~~ Sam calls Bobby for help, and they find Dean just in time to stop the suicide, but Dean is further injured by the bullet grazing him. The spirit is taking him over with a vengeance, and he is very sick and feverish due to wounds and infections. There are long scenes were Sam and Bobby try to treat him in a hotel room, afraid to take him to a hospital because someone is looking for them (Agent Hendrickson, maybe? I don't remember for sure). There are long scenes where Dean is delirious, and having hallucinations about Sammy being in trouble and Dean being unable to help him. Sam tries to comfort him and reassure him that what he's experiencing isn't real. Schmoop, schmoop, lots of precious schmoop. (But NOT overdone and cheesy schmoop. In my opinion, anyhow.) The way they vanquish the spirit is by stopping Dean's heart with something in a syringe. Dean is down for a long time and Sam has just given up CPR and is holding Dean when he revives. In the end they wind up re-visiting the place where Hannah was killed so Dean can come to terms with his guilt about the incident. For which Sam forgives him, naturally.
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I'd love to find this, it was a great story and very well written. If someone helps me find it, everybody should give it a read (0; Thanks!!