This is a request posted by vain_chan in 2011 and since the story hasn't been found yet, I'm reposting it:


I've been hunting for this fic for a few weeks and I cannot it anywhere. It's driving me insane, so I'm hoping to harness the comm's collective awesomeness to locate it.

The fic is several years old and it's an AU of season 2's 'Born Under a Bad Sign.' In the story, after Meg/Sam knocks Dean unconscious, he assaults Dean. Afterwards, possessed!Sam keeps Dean under control by threatening to hurt Sam's body (biting off his tongue, stabbing him, etc.), beating Dean, and tying him up. This goes on for several weeks while possessed!Sam kills hunters listed in John's journal. Eventually possessed!Sam takes a pretty broken Dean to Bobby's, trying to force Dean to kill Bobby. Bobby knows what's up, though, and he traps and exorcises the demon. I can recall specific scenes in detail: one in which possessed!Sam returns from a kill injured and Dean begs to stitch Sam's body up, and a separate non-con scene where possessed!Sam is in the bathtub, washing off blood from a kill and forcibly holding Dean's head on him under water, while thinking to Sam something along the lines of, "This is how the world is going to end: willingly drowned in blood."

This is a well-written, long-ish fic, and I think there we a sequel dealing with the fallout of Sam and Dean's recovery; it may have even been part of a series. As you can probably see, it's very dark and deals with some pretty rough subject matter including physical and psychological torture, non-con, and some pretty graphic violence. There's massive amounts of Dean abuse and no small amount of damage to Sam since it continues into the recovery phase. It was one of the first fics I read in this fandom before I got a delicious account, so I don't have it book marked. I also could not find it under the tags on this comm. Please, please help me find it. You'll be my favorite person forever. Thanks.