I've been hunting down a fic I read years ago, that I cannot seem to find - I am hoping that someone can point me in the right direction. I remember scenes, and overall plot, so I hope someone recognizes this.

Sam and Dean are kidnapped (pretty sure it is set post-Stanford). The men that take them are in human trafficking(?). (I believe they got upset with Dean,follow the boys out of town, and beat them before taking them.) They use the boy's safety against each other telling Dean that they will keep Sam safe if he complies, and vice versa. (Sam is forced to "service" men and Dean is forced to "service" women.)

Somehow, the boys manage to escape and they take off together. I don't remember how or after what happens -- they possibly meet up with their father in an abandoned motel that is a "safe-house".

The next bit I remember, is that Sam starts receiving emails with video clips and pictures of what happened to him while he was captured. They manage to track down the library computer that the emails are being sent from and use surveillance to find out who is sending them. Sam and Dean won't tell each other what happened to them, but the last email that Sam gets is of his first rape in which he was gagged and blindfolded, and he finds out it was a blindfolded (possibly hooded?) Dean. (The fic is graphic and goes into detail about the first encounter from both POVs.)

Dean never realized it was Sam and freaks out, while the pictures help Sam to cope a little better, since it was just his brother, and Dean didn't mean it.

I know that it eventually becomes Sam/Dean, but I don't remember how. I also remember that they go back to the warehouse, possibly with John, and kill everyone? Or either John finds out what happened and tracks the guys down and kills them. I'm not sure.

I'm fairly sure I initially read this on Sam/Dean Slash Archive or on Sinful Desires, but I don't remember which one. The only other thing I can tell you is that it was fairly long. I believe it took a few days to get through. (Though that could also be because of the nature of the story.)

Any help locating this would be so awesome. I haven't been able to locate it here in this comm, or on any other "archive list".



**Mods, I couldn't find a Non-Con or Rape tag.