I'm having a really hard time finding fics that deal with s8.

Mostly in that most I've seen give way too much sympathy for Sam abandoning Dean in Purgatory.

I'd just like to read something where Sam shows actual remorse, and that don't try to come up with excuses or make us feel sorry for Sam. I really don't want to see anything that gives Sam an excuse for behaving like an asshole, or that ignore the way he tried to blackmail Dean into shutting up. I just want to read something that has Sam facing up to what he put Dean through, without trying to make Dean the bad guy for reacting badly to the way Sam treated him.

Any pairing's fine, crossovers are a plus, and I would love a focus on Dean having PTSD from Purgatory

For the record, I prefer nothing that bashes Sam, I just don't want to see yet another story that completely ignores Dean's pain in order to come up with excuses for Sam's horrendous attitude.