I'm looking for a specific story, but I also love the whole genre of depressed teenage Sam... so fic recs are welcome in addition to finding the specific story.

I don't remember much about the story, but I remember how it emotionally impacted me. So I'm trying to find it again.

Here is what I can recall:

-Winchesters get to a town where they are going to stay for a while. I think, right away, Sam doesn't like it.
-Sam has a sketchbook. He likes to draw.
-At one point, Sam tears up a picture he drew of Dean and himself. This part is important and I think it's when he reaches rock bottom.
-I'm pretty sure Sam self harms in this story (not certain, but pretty sure).
-It's a slow decline, for Sam, into this pit of depression and low self worth.