Hi everyone, I'm looking for a specific fic that I'll probably feel really silly for forgetting. What I remember:

-The fic takes place during Stanford-era and early Season 1.

- Sam's been secretly in love with Dean all his life, but is unsure whether to consider himself gay as Dean's been the only he loved.

- At Stanford, he gets some advice from a classmate to explore his sexuality a little, and ends up hooking up with said classmate, in a one time friends-with-benefits kind of way.

- Dean accidentally finds out about Sam's sexual exploration. Sam tells Dean his story, minus Dean being his One True Love. Dean is fairly cool with it.

- Dean finds videos/pictures of Sam with other guys on Sam's laptop while searching for things to salvage post-fire Season 1.

- Dean ends up taking Sam's laptop to the bathroom and secretly jerking off to one of the porn videos of Sam - although he gets interrupted by Sam halfway.

Any help would be amazing.

ETA: FOUND by phoenix1966! Desperate Measures by 427-67Impala