Hi y'all!
I'm looking for a specific hurt!dean fic that I read some time ago. I was actually sure it was by wave obscura, but i've searched their masterlist and can't find it. I'm certain it was by an author that writes a lot of hurt dean, tho.
Anyway, the fic itself was a one-shot set sometime in season 1. It was Sam pov, and in it Dean gets clawed by some kind of nasty, but the main point of it is that Sam, who has been away at Stanford, is not used to sewing up his brother anymore, and is kind of freaking out insisting they should go to a hospital while Dean insists that it's really not that bad, just sew me up Sammy I'll be fine.
I think that Sam was freaking out so badly (or maybe was just out of practice) that they couldn't give any painkillers to Dean until they were done because he had to walk Sam through stitching him up. Oh, and one random detail I remember is that Dean is like "ok you should put a spare sheet under me so I don't mess up the bed" and Sam kind of hysterically asks "do you really think I care about the bed right now!" only to realize after he's done that he really should have used one because now he has to move a semi-conscious dean to the non-wet bed.
The main thing I remember is that it was a really intense fic, not shying away at all from the horror of the whole stitching-up-your-brother-in-a-motel-room-when-he-should-REALLY-be-in-a-hospital. It felt very emotionally real and I think ended with Sam kind of thinking that he could not believe that he used to consider this just a part of life.
I know its kind of a meandering description, but I would really like to read this fic again, so if you have any ideas please let me know!