Hi,
So I have been looking for this fic for about 4 to 5 yrs. I have finally gotten frustrated enough to get over the fear and shyness of posting online and try and get help to find this fic. As I have only read it once and it was years ago I may be a bit vague on the details.
Anyway the fic was set during the apocalypse but Sam did not accept Lucifer and was saying no to do this Dean carved ruins into Sam's back. At the start of the story they were coming down from the mountains I think? It had something to do with Sam. Sam then saved a kid and Dean wondered why anyone would be scared of Sam. They later met up with a camp or refuge base where the others were wary of them. I do not believe the camp at first knew who they were. They bunked together in the same room and pushed the beds together but I think it was only for comfort I don't think it was slash.
Sam and dean then helped to fight the demons (?). One scene had them fighting together to show the rest of the camp how/ or what it was like and the camp was amazed at the brutal and efficient way they fought. They finally managed to kill Lucifer only the rest of the camp then thought Sam and Dean were dead as a building collapsed on them. The ending had them being seen in the mountains alive though.
From memory Sam was portrayed as traumatised and was very scary. Dean was the over protective big brother. So overall not much difference to many other fics there.
I think the fic was around or at least 100k.
Thanks in advance for any and all help :)

Ps. As this is my first ever post on LJ if I have done something wrong please let me know!

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