i read this fic years ago so it's not recent fic by any means. if i remember correctly, the fic had jared and jensen meeting at a party and not liking each other at first sight. jensen went through a lot of heavy things when he got to Hollywood and has a really warped perspective of what it means to be a young actor in the Industry and a young gay man. jensen acts like a bit of a jerk and jared is pretty much in love with him the whole time, though he tries to keep it casual and not scare jensen off. at one point they break up, but it ends in a happy ending. i remember that the fic made it clear that jensen thought he wasn't good enough for jared, and he had these pretty screwed up protective/destructive instincts toward him. the story begins before they start on Supernatural, which is where the j2 non au "kind of" thing comes in. thank you, in advance!

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Found: The New!OTP Verse by strippedpink:  http://strippedpink.livejournal.com/?skip=10&tag=new%20otp%20%27verse