19 October 2016 @ 06:21 am
Hey, everyone. I'm really just looking for any fics you know of that contain alcoholic (or drug addict) Dean going to rehab. I like angst but also happy endings. I'm not too picky, the longer the better! I like AUs but if you have any that aren't so AU that's good too. Prefer no Wincest, but I'll take it if you have it :)
I jsut checked the deleted stories list, but this is either not on the list, or Im not seeing it for some reason D:

I have a hard copy of this printed out (from 2011 or so D: ), but I keep losing it, and I want to be able to have a digital copy of it (preferebly in ePub format, but PDF is ok too)

I think I have the 'big' tags picked out.. The Alcoholism/being drunk is on John's part, not Dean/Cas/Sam/Gabriel's
This was a specific fic I remember reading. I remember most of it, just not the title. In the fic the Mark of Cain eventually messes Dean up so much he loses contact with everyone, and everyone sort of lets him (as a side effect of the mark). He goes to Mexico, learns a bit of Spanish, and gets a job where he ends up cutting off his own arm "on accident" to get rid of the mark. Everyone thought it was because he was drunk (Dean is an alcoholic), and eventually Dean ends up going to AA meetings. A lot of the story revolves around him recovering from alcoholism. There's a family living next door to him that he becomes good friends with. Back in America, Sam and his girlfriend (an OC), as well as Charlie and Cas (who is a professor) all hang out once a week for movie night, and they slowly start realizing, wait, why did we lose track of Dean? And they track him down via Charlie's computer skills and Cas's mojo. Dean was going under an alias. Sam and his girlfriend send him an email and go and meet him.

I think it was on Livejournal? I just can't remember the title! Does anyone know it?
14 August 2015 @ 03:04 pm
I am wondering if anyone has any recs for fics where character A is an alcoholic (recovering) and character B is their sober companion? A sober companion or sober coach provides one-on-one assistance to newly recovering drug addicts and alcoholics, possibly someone who lives in that person's house.

I've definitely read at least one so I know they're out there, I just don't remember how to find the fic/what ship it was. But I will take anything, any pairing, any AU or rpf. Double points if you can find the one I originally read.
20 July 2015 @ 07:11 pm
hellooo... please help me with the following fanfics...

1) Any fanfics where Sam has gotten addicted to alcohol or drugs and Dean helps to overcome the problem.. I would love it if it s during season 4 where instead of alcohol Sam gets addicted to alcohol...

2) Fics where in season 5 Sam listens to everthing that Dean tells him without any arguments coz he feels guilty for starting the apocolypse.. Dean tries to get Sam to be responsive and voice out his opinion...

(general fics, no pairing)

Thank you so much:)
13 July 2015 @ 08:39 am
Alrighty, I am seriously having trouble finding fics that don't that are not beyond frustrating either because it is a dead fic unfinished, the plot rocks but the writing makes me want to cry in horror, the writing is to wind baggery for my attention span (like 'you need to turn left, then right, then circle back around...ect' when only need to say 'it is right beside you').    OR TOO SHORT AND NOT SQUEAL IN SIGHT :''(

1. I would love if people can rec fics that boys are bamf and get things done. You know where they are kicking arse and taking names. Whether as hunters or supernatural creatures. Maybe the boys boys destroying some kind of system/plane of existance or just a kick arse on hunt.

2. Fics with Sam having a record of addiction (drugs, self-harm, tobacco, ect) before (and maybe after if you have some) the demon blood.

3. Anyone have any dark!stanford fics.

4. Season Eight Universe Alterations. Where everyone gets their crap together and it either gets better or worse, or everyone stop brushing everyone eles mental states off.

5. Any fics that are based in canon and the boys are angels in there own rights.

Any pairing, any type. No rules, just fics. 
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31 May 2015 @ 11:30 am
hey i'm looking for a fic where dean and cas after they'd gone out as hunting partners are getting along really well and excluding sam like making him do errands for them and not telling him stuff. sam gets so depressed he starts drinking a lot but dean doesn't notice until one day where he sees sam either really drunk or passed out. and then cas made a rude comment to sam and dean thinks he made cas think it was okay to talk to sam like that. help??
18 January 2015 @ 06:27 am
So I was wondering if anyone has any recs where jared gets drunk, doesn't shower, gets fired, or whatever because he feels miserable for messing up with jensen? If u got em rec em please!
12 January 2015 @ 10:23 am
I am searching for a fic I read on AO3 several years ago and can't seem to find again. I can't remember the title or authors name and have searched AO3 with no luck.

Cas is now human, Dean and Sam are retired from hunting (mostly) and Dean and Cas are living together in an apartment. The get jobs at a little diner and try to live a quiet life. Dean is drinking a lot and Cas teaches himself to cook and starts wearing fluffy sweaters. Cas likes to celebrate every single holiday in a big way. Everyone assumes they are together but Dean says no since they are not having sex. Even youth he likes cuddling and doing domestic things together. And Cas gets him to stop drinking.

I remember at one point Dean gives Cas wings for Christmas. Fairly long fic.

Hope someone can help! It's driving me crazy...
21 November 2014 @ 02:02 pm
Hey all! I'm hoping that you guys can help me with this. I'm looking for a story where Sam has turned to alcohol to help "solve" a problem. [livejournal.com profile] mentholpixie's Stale Beer and Cigarette Smoke verse is a good example though I'd prefer something along the lines of Dean's coming back from Hell or Purgatory and finding Sam in a bad state, or Sam turning to alcohol when Lucifer is bothering him. Thanks!
06 September 2014 @ 02:34 pm
Set in season 7 and Dean overdoses on his pain killers for his broken leg, he washed the pills down with whiskey.. I remember Sam sticking his fingers down Dean's throat and later putting him to bed saying "I hate you so much right now" or something like that.

Anyone? :)
09 May 2014 @ 08:24 pm
Hello, I'm looking for a story in which Jared, Jensen, and Daneel are friends from childhood, and each other's only family, and end up moving in together at the end, or at least telling Daneel that she'll always have a room in their house.
I think Jared was a drug addict, Jensen was a wealthy constructor (?) and Daneel was a model or an actress.  As you can tell the details I remember are very sketchy.  Found in comments.

My second request is for your favorite stories where one of the boys suffers form an alcohol or drug addiction.
Thanks in advance!

Hi everyone,
I love this fandom, and every last one of it fans! I need help finding a fic. that I read a long time ago, and can't seem to find.

Jensen has been abused in one way or another during his time on every TV show he's been on (emotionally, physically, sexually). He has severe PTSD, and uses drugs, and other self-harming tactics to cope, and to deal with his past abuse.

When he joins the SPN cast and meets Jared feelings develop between the J's, but Jensen is severely damaged but wants to be a stronger, and better person for Jared and eventually tells Jared about all the abuse. I remember Jared feeling overwhelmed, and torn between being happy that Jensen finally starts to tell him his painful past, and physically ill from Jensen's sometimes awkward, and sudden outburst of all the ugly things he went through.

I also remember that Jensen actually believed he wasn't worthy of love, friendship, or even being in Jared's company, and that he was very vulnerable and the story made me cry.

Oh, and Jared has a fight outside of a movie rental place with an old abuser of Jensen's, because the CW star starts calling Jensen a whore, and slut. I think the old abuser actually was with another CW star that he was currently dating, and Jared felt sorry for the new boyfriend and eventually helped that actor out of his abusive relationship with the unknown abuser. If I remember correctly Jensen and the other abused CW star both end up living with Jared. Also, Jared gets physically, and emotional ill himself from neglecting his own needs and putting Jensen's first all the time.

I hope someone remembers this story because I can't find it:-D

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03 August 2013 @ 01:25 am
Basically looking for any Destiel (whether its romantic or friendship wise) fics of human!cas who dies, maybe hunting with Sam and Dean or whatever, but Dean is horribly devastated and has like a mental breakdown, or abuses alcohol or just can't get out of a slump because of it. Fics where it just focuses on the aftermath of Cas' death are neat and welcomed too.

no wincest please. 
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17 May 2013 @ 05:15 pm
Hiya all!

I'm looking for AU fics where Castiel is portrayed as closer to 2014!Cas versus regular Cas. I know these have to exist somewhere, but they're not really labeled like this, so they're difficult to find.

Any pairing or rating; just no actual end!verse.

Please and thanks!
01 May 2013 @ 06:10 pm
I was just looking for a bunch of fics with Sam where he gets depressed or tries to run away or exhausted and severely sad or something and ends up breaking down, and John sort of calms him down and reassures him of his place in the family or something along those lines. Anything from drinking to bullying to sam hiding an injury cause it's "his fault" to suicide is fine (as long as it's not a death fic)
I'd prefer in character stories, so no complete asshole John but he can be nasty.
Any big brother cute Dean stories too are fine.
I really just want any teak jerker sam fics, and maybe some wee!chester "I should've died instead of mom" sam with good john and dean.
I just finished a Season 2 rewatch.
So now I'm looking for Hurt!Dean, Angsty Dean, Grieving!dean fics that take place in season 2. Something that focuses on his head space, on his being tired of the job, on his grief, on his self loathing or dealing with what the the demon said to him. Also any good cops chasing boys fics. Basically anything season 2 with angsty/hurt Dean. Long fics and case fics are love.

Also while I'm at it a few other general requests
1. Dean hunting alone while Sam is at Standford. Or fics with flashbacks to Dean hunting alone.
2. Dean in alcohol withdrawal. Any season.
Gen is preferred but I will take Wincest if its a great fic!

Thanks in advance, you guys are always helpful :)

Hi y'all!

So I'm looking for a couple for a couple of specific requests  if that's okay!

1. It was Teen!chester I think it involved John being a bit hard on Dean's grades and then Dean was distracted whilst driving and was in a car accident and he was in hospital for ages. I think he was given restraints at one point because he kept removing his IV and he called his nurse Nurse Ratched as in 'One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest' and John and Sam don't get on very well.

2. This one is very vague, I realise. Dean had Cystic Fribrosis an I think it was a verse but I'm not certain but I remember one part where there was a ghost of a guy Dean used to know with CF and it was possibly Stanford!Era because Jess was there.

3. Again, a little vague. I remember reading what I think was a oneshot of Dean and he was going to a gay bar when bumped into John and was significantly embarrassed. It was really short and there wasn't any ACTUAL sexytimes I think but it was cute and funny.

4. Lastly, I remember starting an excellent fic that I never finished. It was set around a haunting in a college and Dean and Sam had pretend to be a couple and there was definitely no actual feelings between them but one night Sam overheard Dean talking to someone saying something like 'I never really had a chance to talk about it' and that's all I can remember and I'm bummed I never finished it!

Additionally, if you have any fics like this:
- One of the Winchesters discussing their sexuality
- Anything with the Winchesters discovering they have some sort of terminal illness or condition like diabetes or asthma
- Something set with the Winchesters in prison
- Dean recovering from his blatant alcoholism that would be great! Let;s clean that boy up!
- Your sweetest, fluffiest coffeeshop or bakery AUs

Just keep it mostly light-hearted please :)
No Wincest or character death please. I'll take anything else though! x

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14 March 2013 @ 07:40 am
Hello everyone!
I know that there a lot of stories with Dean as badboy. Most of them set in High school AUs or general AUs. But now I wondered if there are any Badboy stories with Castiel out there. And where Dean is either the shy one or is just Dean. Maybe Dean gets even bullied by Castiel. I would take everything with Castiel as the badboy.

Maybe someone could help me out?
Thank you!
08 September 2012 @ 09:31 pm
I'm looking for a fic I've read several times but forgot to save.

It's an AU where John and Mary are alive, the Winchesters live in Lawrence and Sam and Dean are in high school.  Dean moves to California after he graduates and a few years later Sam follows after him.  John's an alcoholic and if I remember correctly, Mary dies or they divorce.  It's the beginnings of wincest while Dean is still home and it's one of the reasons that he leaves.  He works in an auto shop in CA and he has his own drinking problem.  

Any help would be greatly appreciated.  Thanks!

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