I, uh, would really like to read it, but. See, I just don't understand death fics. I don't understand why people write them. I just - I can admit that there are a lot of them that are very well-written, but I can't find them enjoyable. I'm sure it's because of personal experiences, so. I guess that if I care about a character enough to read a fic, I'm emotionally attached enough to get hurt when they die. Like, I recently read a fic where Sam gets hurt and they have to stop hunting, and Sam finishes his education and Dean becomes a third grade teacher. And they're respected in a small town and they're happy, and then Dean gets hit by a car and dies. I loved the fic, and enjoyed it, and then that just hurt so bad. That was the main reason for the plea for recs, actually. I wanted to forget that fic existed.

Like, like, OK. Don't get me wrong, because it was beautifully written and in character - I just. I can't really handle death fics. *fragile*

NEVERMIND. I just cheated, like I do, and read the last part of the fic you just recced to spoil myself.

You met Gale Harold? He's doing plays, isn't he? To be honest, I haven't really kept up with him after QaF, but I'd love to hear that story.

Haha, yeah I was going to private message you. I don't read death fics either, so I spoiled myself before reading it too. You should totally read the whole thing though, because it is made of win. I *hate* death fics. There's one called "We Were Twenty" that I really wish I could read, because everyone says it's amazing, but I just can't. (Actually, I don't know much about it, but that might be the fic you were just talking about!) But other than that fic, I really don't feel like I'm missing out on much. There are angsty fics that have happy endings, if I'm in the mood to cry or something. I don't need something that leaves me hollow and empty!

I'm not trying to insult those who read/write them, because a lot of them are incredibly well written and realistic- I just can't handle them. Enough family/friends in my life have died... I don't need my fictional characters to do it too!

Yeah, I saw Gale when he was doing Suddenly Last Summer in NYC. And I saw Randy do three plays, cause he does them right by me every summer.

Randy:
http://out-0f-habit.livejournal.com/6769.html

and I failed at updating about my other two encounters with him, and my time in NYC seeing SLS. But I'm actually kind of mad I forgot, so I'll write them and then send the links :)

I'm not trying to insult those who read/write them, because a lot of them are incredibly well written and realistic- I just can't handle them. Enough family/friends in my life have died... I don't need my fictional characters to do it too!

YES. That's pretty much it. And when it comes down to it, in the show I'd rather they live, than die. Why would fics be any different?

I'm thinking I'll have to friend + be friended by you to see that entry, but that's cool, since I was thinking about doing that anyway. :D