Okay, so I was afraid if I opened up anymore windows, my computer would revolt entirely. So here's my favorite gut-wrenching illness ones that I have right now:

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6174473/1/Ghosts_Whispers <-- IS NOT ILLNESS. And it's really not even a very happy ending. But it's still a warmer and fuzzier ending than it could be. "Missouri couldn't tear her eyes from the younger Winchester, not even when Sam's eyes welled and tears flooded down his cheeks. Because Dean was a total wreck, but Sam... Sam was dead. Post Swan Song. ONESHOT."

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5732476/1/Fade <-- "Sam's sick, Dean's panicking and everything's about to go to hell. Sam needs a whole new life, one where his last name isn't Winchester because Winchesters are cursed." I cried at this one. OMG... it's so insanely sad. Squick warning for minor drug use, fyi.

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5774591/1/Lullaby <-- Again, not necessarily a 'happy ending', so much as a warmer and fuzzier one. Really good listening to the song and reading it, because it just gives chills then. "Dean stands vigil after a hunt gone bad. Done to Metallica's "Nothing Else Matters"

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4753546/1/Holding_Home <-- "It was a long time to live without a soul. Tag to Mystery Spot." Just... an awesome heartbreaking one. Awesome-big-brother Dean too. And her other one I MUST insist you read:

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4179061/1/Goodnight_Moon <-- I cry. Every time I read it. Wee-chesters, tons of laughs, until it suddenly becomes quite serious, and I can't read the whole thing anymore in one sitting, because I cry so bad. *growls* Man, I'm tearing up just writing this. *huffs* "Sam was also sounding a little congested—a squeaky sound coming from his little nostrils every time he breathed out. God, it was adorable. They were so screwed. WIP Tissue Warning. Only epilogue left!"

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6444236/1/One_Thing_Leads_To_Another <-- It's not ended yet, FYI, but it's great at the heartbreak. And she promises a happy ending, so... "It was just routine surgery. But this was Sam. Nothing was routine. PreSeries, Teenchesters - Sick!Hurt!Hospitalized!Sam"

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4591526/1/Gifts <-- is another WIP, but it's gutwrenching. "Dean discovers sometimes the greatest sacrifices aren’t that big after all, and the smallest gifts can make all the difference. Hurt!Sick Sam" Has Sam seriously injured and screwed up. :(

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5653685/1/Crows_in_the_Wheatfield <-- "After a hunt gone wrong Dean wakes up in the middle of nowhere with no memory of what happened and in a world of trouble. With Sam at Stanford, Dean has to rely on his father to find him in time. Hurt/Dean" Not exactly a happy ending, but a great look inside Sam and Dean's Gen relationship during Stanford, and just... guh.

Yeah, I know, they're all FF.net. That was the quickest thing to nab off of. And I'mma gonna stop now, or else this will go on forever.

Wow! Thanks so much! I'm actually reading One Thing Leads To Another, its soooo sad =(

OMG, isn't it?? If you think -that's- sad, check out Good Night Moon. *fumbles for kleenex*

I know, its made me cry more than once already. And i will lol *stocks up on tissues* =)

A nice long J2 AU: http://sd-singer.livejournal.com/23563.html

shifter fic: http://sd-singer.livejournal.com/6875.html (not sure its exactly what you're lookin' for)

a long wincest preseries fic http://sd-singer.livejournal.com/57242.html

long-ish wincest take on the pilot: http://sd-singer.livejournal.com/15923.html

hope those help :D

Thanks! =)

Hey there
First of all, your icon is amazing and makes me giggle :-D

For 1) I cannot recommend ...and it went right to my head (http://kimonkey7.livejournal.com/62034.html?view=3760466#t3760466) enough. It's just amazingly written and it makes me cry when I read it (it sorta fits your 5th request, except, of course, John stays dead, so the happy ending isn't that happy ;-)

For 5) I want also recommend Don't ask, don't tell (http://dodger-winslow.livejournal.com/52387.html): "If we got in a wreck, and Sammy and I were both unconscious, and the Impala caught on fire so you could only save one of us, who would you save?"
This really always breaks my heart, but there is no illness or something like it. Still, it's really something to cry over. Happy Ending, kinda, sorta. No bad end, at least.

For 4), I have a few.
Beasts and Outlaws (http://calamitycrow.livejournal.com/8282.html): Back in 2001, two brothers made their choices. Now Dean's in a relationship and Sam's a respected hunter who has his father's love and approval. Of course, nothing's that easy when you are a Winchester.
In this AU, the boys have what they want. Dean has a partner to hunt with, Sam and John get along. Life should be good for the boys, right? Yeah, well......

I can't believe I fell for Dean/OMC. But all the original characters here are so damn likable and interesting and the whole thing is just so wonderfully strange and different and GOOD. Screwed-up timeline has you paying attention and hooked into it like crazy.

Redemption (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4899448/1/Redemption) (I didn't know how A your Us should be, so I put it up here): Sam took a step back as he turned. The look on his face wasn’t one of mourning; it was pure determination sheathed in desperation. “Dean’s in Hell, Bobby,” he said. “I’m going to get him back.” End of Season 3 AU;

Relative Gold (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5759954/1/Relative_Gold): . Dean's life goes in a whole other direction when Sam supposedly dies at age four. But while on the Shooting Team in the 2004 Olympics, Dean meets a tall, shaggy-haired swimmer. Can the yellow-eyed demon be far behind?
Wonderful AU wth a much more positive outcome of the life Dean and Sam lived - even though it still sucks.

Hunters of the Dark Side (http://paleogymnast.livejournal.com/18329.html): An alternate retelling of Supernatural set in the Star Wars universe or "What if Sam and Dean were Jedi?" Not a crossover as no characters from the Star Wars!verse are used.
This is GREAT! A truly compelling fiction with twists and turns and fun and tension. It has a sequel, which is Dean/Castiel (not an angel-Cas)

Apophenia Lux (http://apophenia-lux.livejournal.com/): When Sam's girlfriend Jessica goes missing, he decides to leave school and enlist the aid of his brother he hasn't seen in four years. Largely an excuse to stick the boys on Mars, and give Dean an airship.
This is such an amazing piece of work, written with so much creativity and fun and ... and... heck, go read it! STEAM-PUNK Winchesters, yay!

The first Christmas together (http://calamitycrow.livejournal.com/3190.html#cutid1): Dean gets custody of a kid he didn't know he had

I don't like "kid-fics", as in Dean(orSam) has a kid. but this is great. It's short, no sugar-poisoning. Dean is still Dean, just switched his priorities around some. Sam is living in Oregon, btw. Two chapters. You can make it!

My life's come off its tracks (http://mimblexwimble.livejournal.com/90668.html): Dean tells her, things are going fine, yeah he got into a fight and no, he doesn’t want to talk about it. He’s getting better and better at this sign language thing. He looks at her brightly. Big smile.

Amazing piece of work with a mute Dean and a Sam who really shines. This is... just perfect. Go, read!


This one isn't that much AU, since it basically follows the timeline, but it's still not canon all the way, so maybe? And anyway, if you haven't read it, GO!
Broken Images (http://www.supernaturalville.net/viewstory.php?sid=1122&textsize=0&chapter=1): They brought in a wild animal as a patient, frightened and scared, wild hair and splintered soul. She lost the ability to be distant over time - and tried everything, to put this broken man back together

Oh, a very long and twisty one is Dog eat Dog (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3417933/1/Dog_Eat_Dog): After a hunt gone south, Dean Winchester discovers that he is the human half of the Trickster God Coyote.

tbc

And Hell followed with him (http://legoline.livejournal.com/959178.html): This is an alternate take on season 4: Dean's gone to Hell, and Hell's come to Earth. Sam is leading a handful of people who are continually caught in a struggle against the demons that walk amongst them. One day, four years after his deal was up, a battered Dean returns from Hell at the same time that suspicions begin that there is a mole in the camp.

Oooh, one of my favorites: Reality Check (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4774188/1/Reality_Check): After a bad hunt, Dean wakes up to find that nothing is as it should be. Rubber rooms and padded walls, with no hope of escape, unless he can convince Sam that he's not crazy.
I'm not sure if it's finished, but it CAN be read as finished. Awesome!

Of Bastard Saints (http://nilchance.livejournal.com/205229.html): After Devils Trap, Dean dies. Sam is devastated but doesn't believe it, John's leg is fucked up and someone with blue hair meets Vikings.
Said to be wincest later, but this part isn't and can stand alone.

Lazarus came forth (http://oselle.livejournal.com/329417.html#cutid1): Dean makes it out of hell and finds that things topside are not much better than down below. Apocalypse fic of the whimper rather than bang variety.




Ok, these are only the gen ones, SPN.
I have some J2 bookmarked here: http://www.delicious.com/Marlowe97/j2 , which are all awesome and all AU,since I only read those when it comes to RPF.

Have fun with this list ;-)

(haha thanks! It's Freakazoid =D)
Thanks a lot! I'm gonna be reading forever lol.

My all-time favorite J2 AU fics (in no particular order):

But Then My Homework Was Never Quite Like This (http://thenyxie.livejournal.com/481145.html) by thenyxie
(be sure to get all the sequels/codas/timestamps)
Summary: Jared is eighteen and in his senior year at a private school in San Francisco. He is coasting pretty on his parents generous school donations -- until his seventh period Physics teacher gets replaced with the maddening, infuriating, gorgeous Mr. Ackles. Jared has gotten by all his life on his money and his charm, but Mr. Ackles seems to think he needs some... lessons in self-control. The journey their relationship eventually takes them on turns out to be far more than either of them ever bargained for.
Reccer’s Note: Truly epic! And honestly the best erotica I have ever read, including professionally published works. Truly, this story is the very definition of ‘erotic’.

My Heart Don’t Beat The Way It Used To (http://raina-at.livejournal.com/315214.html) by raina_at
Summary: Jared and Jensen have been best friends forever, and nothing’s going to ever change that, not even senior slump, or college anxieties, or even Jared getting an annoying cheerleader girlfriend. Or so Jensen thought.
Reccer’s Note: This fic has kinda haunted me since I first read it; I find myself drawn back to it over and over again. Jensen’s longing, his self-realizations, his struggles to regain balance, really stick with me. And the happy ending, despite feeling like it is in jeopardy the whole time, also feels inevitable once it arrives.

Can’t Point The Way To Your Heart (http://belyste.livejournal.com/15726.html) by belyste
Summary: In the vein of movies like Hitch -- Jensen's an unofficial advice guru, and Jared's his latest project. Except while Jensen's supposed to be helping Jared end up with the woman of his dreams, he falls for him instead.
Reccer’s Note: Jared is sooooooooooo funny in this! Clueless and adorable and romantic. Jensen is a fantastic foil for him; not stuffy, really has himself together. Most times, authors tend to write the ‘serious’ character as a total boring stick in the mud, but not here; Jensen is sharp-witted and cleverly humorous, not some big ball of angst. Without giving anything away, there is a part that made me want to cry; I honestly got a little choked up. But nobody dies tragically, and it’s a total happy ending, so it’s completely worth it! This is Romance at its best. I found myself falling in love with these endearing characters, and really rooting for them.

The Ones That Can Swallow You Whole (http://embroiderama.livejournal.com/298657.html) by embroiderama
Summary: A near-drowning has left Jared deeply afraid of water -- a big problem considering he lives in a beach town. Jensen is a sailboat-builder who has survived a few things himself.
Reccer’s Note: This one is about helping each other heal. It focuses on the recovery, rather than the trauma. It is very well written, struck just the right balance of emotions, didn’t go overboard on the angst, while still being satisfyingly dramatic. It just totally gave me warm fuzzies, the whole time! My cheeks kinda ached a little from grinning so much. I am such a sucker for a good J2 AU romance! *happy sigh*

Then Again I Just Might (http://community.livejournal.com/saucyminxfix/16111.html) by cha and anyothergirl415 (aka Charlotte and Miss. Brie)
(be sure to get the sequel too)
Summary: It's not totally weird to be in love with a person's voice, is it? If it is, Jared's pretty much okay with being weird.
Reccer’s Note: Stuttery, painfully shy Jared is the most adorable thing ever! And Jensen is the awesomest, coolest, sexiest boyfriend. This fic is sooooo romantic -- and insanely hot! The two of them are just the adorablest adorables who ever adorabled. Plus, the soundtrack is fantastic.

Whups! these god dropped off my first post:

Small Small World (http://dragonspell.livejournal.com/154204.html) by dragonspell
A/N: AU
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jensen Ackles has got the dream job of a former comic book fanboy: the creator of his very own series, Small Small World, which stars the man who would be perfect for Jensen, if only he were real. Little does Jensen know that his world is about to get a whole lot smaller.
Reccer’s Note: This is an amazing character study, as well as being a great adventure, and probably one of the most lavish visceral stories I’ve ever read. Jensen’s life just goes Bzuh?! There is adventure, and then he gets the love he’s always dreamed of.
Oh, and it is completely unfair of my hubby to not let me marry petite_madame for this artwork. *stomps foot*

The two-part story Mating Flight (http://dragonspell.livejournal.com/158140.html) and Needlessly Complicated (http://dragonspell.livejournal.com/158214.html) by dragonspell
A/N: AU
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Summary1: Every single time that Carinth, his Green, got ready to rise for another mating flight, J’sen felt like a scared, skittish virgin all over again.
Summary2: J’red had really thought that this would be easier. It wasn’t as if he just expected everything in life to just drop into his lap; it was more that he hadn’t expected ‘wooing’ J’sen to be this difficult.
Reccer’s Note: Dragonriders Of Pern J2, FTW! \o/ This is a fantastic character study and action combination. (plus meltingly hawt porn! guh!) It’s about how disastrous misunderstandings can be, and about how persistence can pay off beyond your wildest dreams.

Thanks! =D

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6264190/1/What_could_you_possibly_say_to_make_this_alright

Sam tells Dean and his dad he's going to college. My attempt at the fight that separated the Winchesters for years to come. While Sam and John are butting heads, Dean is lost in the middle.

*ducks*

Cool! Thank you! =)

http://web.mac.com/bigpink1/Big_Pink/Tales.html

Dazzleland by Big Pink works for 1 and 3.

Thanks =)

For #1, Sam's reaction to John's death:

Broken Souls And Tired Regrets (http://halfshellvenus.livejournal.com/334880.html) by halfshellvenus -- (gen) -- Summary (post-2x01, "In My Time Of Dying"): Dad's gone, but for Sam that shadow still remains…


For #2, shapeshifters:

The False Comforts AU (http://chaikhana.net/spn/fc_index.html) by Maygra


For #4, AU fics:

the Turn of the Wheel Series (http://gekizetsu.net/sn/wheelmain.html) by eighth_horizon -- (eventual Sam/Dean) -- the guys keep running into (or rather, getting bitchslapped by) elementals.

The Salvation Future 'Verse (http://assignations.org/spn/fa_index.html) by eighth_horizon and Maygra -- (Sam/Sarah. Dean/OFC, some Sam/Dean) -- I know it looks huge, and it is, but it's an amazingly satisfying world to enter.

Secure the Blessing (http://rahmi.livejournal.com/97723.html), the sequel Up Ahead (the roads were closed) (http://rahmi.livejournal.com/203756.html), and the timestamps (http://rahmi.livejournal.com/230508.html) by rahmi -- (gen) -- AU. When Dean is killed in a fight with demons, Sam in grief and desperation wishes that John, Mary, and Dean live. That they know what "normal" is; that John never has to teach Dean how to be a soldier.... and that Sam is kept away from them because supernatural evil is always attracted to him and he doesn't want it to touch them any more. Of course wishes never go the way they should, and Dean wakes up in a 4 year-old body with most of his memories intact and starts demanding that they produce his Sammy immediately.

Dragon Spell (http://virtualpersonal.livejournal.com/206751.html) by virtualperson and brimstonegold -- (Sam/Dean) -- AU. Crossover with Dragonriders of Pern. Sam finds a scroll in his dad's storage locker that transports him into a world where dragonriders must protect their world from a continuous threat of threafall. Dean finds a way to follow him and finds Sam has no memories of his previous life. There is some non-con due to another character who is in a position of power over Sam. This link is to the master post.

This is the Sun Gone Down (http://fourfreedoms.livejournal.com/120803.html) and the timestamp This Space Will Never Get Tired of You (http://fourfreedoms.livejournal.com/138777.html) by fourfreedoms -- (Sam/Dean) -- The first story is a fascinating examination of what things would have been like if Sam had Dissociative Identity Disorder. Told from Dean's POV. The timestamp is Sam and Dean's first time together after Sam's integration, with special bonus powers!Sam.

The Cartography 'Verse (http://ignipes.livejournal.com/tag/cartography) by ignipes -- (gen) -- Sam is living alone, and it's been 2 years since Dean died... until Lenore appears. With Dean. Except Dean has no memory of who he is, or who Sam is.

Five Districts, Five Drugs (http://rei-c.livejournal.com/tag/5d5d) by rei_c -- (Sam/Dean) -- link to the master page. This is an amazing 'verse that I'm including just in case you haven't read it yet.

thanks!! =D

Too Little, Too Late http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3725099/1/
I LOVE this one, in fact, I love all her stuff. :-) I really like her writing style and characterizations and there's just something about her stories that really get to me.

These two may not quite fit, but just in case you want to try them...
Where I Walk Alone
http://mikiya2200.livejournal.com/16952.html

Given Up
http://mikiya2200.livejournal.com/4582.html

4 and/or 5
Blind Sam. I LOVED it. :-)
Second Sight http://assignations.org/spn/sight_index.html

Brain damage. This one is very bittersweet; I cried bucket loads!
A Life Redirected http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3533659/1/

4.
J2 slash
I Drew A New Face and I Laughed This is f-locked
http://ilikecrystals.livejournal.com/23377.html?#cutid1

gen, Sam and Dean
A Little More Tequila, A Little Less Demon Hunting http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3110914/1/
What if Sam and Dean had had Max's childhood? Inspired by what would have happened if John had taken the "little more tequila, little less demon hunting" route. Title borrowed from Sam's line in "Nightmare." AU except for obvious necessary details pulled from the first scene of the pilot. Lots of mini Sam and Dean in the form of flashbacks.

Gen
True Brotherhood http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4688315/1/True_Brotherhood
and the sequel Brotherhood's Bond http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4859139/1/

Gen
Safe In the Arms of Love http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4190672/1/ Summary: Total AU Dean Winchester was just your average joe working as a mechanic in his hometown of Lawarance,KS when he met Sam Logan and everything changed.
sequels Into the Real World http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4398290/1/
and Family Matters (which is still being written) http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5679532/1/

AU version of how they defeat Lucifer, but it isn't really AU otherwise.
The Wall http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5979923/1/

Not illness but injury and sort of happy ending. Gen
Master of None http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4930428/1/

Amnesiac-Sam, Gen
Ghosts in the Fog http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3035552/1/

Fusion ''verse. Post-Hell Sam with some mental issues. Bittersweet.
http://ratherastory.livejournal.com/102813.html

This one I actually haven't finished reading yet so I don't know if it ends happy or not but I think it does.
Home Is Where the Heart Is http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5937062/1/

Sam is lost in the dessert and gets injured/ill. Loved this one.
The Flight Of the Impala http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5712897/1/

I'm not certain if this one quite fits the category or not, but it's one of my faves so far (it's unfinished but is still active). Sam's cursed to change back and forth from a wolf (does that count as an illness? lol!) and parts of it really wring my heart.
If You Could Only See
http://mikiya2200.livejournal.com/tag/au%3A%20unleashed

Sort of? It deals with Sam's blood addiction withdrawals and is both heart breaking and sweet.
A Little Too Much Nothing
http://mikiya2200.livejournal.com/5295.html

awesome! thank you!! =D