28 September 2014 @ 12:26 am
Sam finds out through his roommate Dean did gay porn to support him...  
Hello all!

      I hope someone can help me find this fic.

     Sam is at Stanford and somehow (I think his roommate showed it to him, or he found it on his roommate's computer?) he sees a video where Dean is being interviewed for his first porn shoot. Dean is nervous but trying not to show it as the interviews ask if he has done a bunch of sexual things using the acronyms (DP, CBT, things like that). Sam can tell that Dean doesn't even know what several of those things are, but Dean says yes to everything to not appear weak.

     Sam is very upset, realizing that Dean would have done this to support him and that Dean would be horrified if Sam knew (hence him never telling Sam).

     Sam's roomate tells him that Dean-the-pornstar is pretty famous.

     At some point Dean comes to visit sam at school and the roomate sees Dean and Sam in their dorm room together and fangirls over Dean and congrulates Sam for hooking up with this awesome porn star. Dean is very upset and mortified, etc.

Does anyone know which fic this is?

Please and thank you!
 
 
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[identity profile] shannie541.livejournal.com on September 28th, 2014 11:13 pm (UTC)
Sounds like The Bright Lights of Disturbia http://archiveofourown.org/works/181007/chapters/266202 (http://archiveofourown.org/works/181007/chapters/266202)
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[identity profile] grasshopr-molly.livejournal.com on September 28th, 2014 11:15 pm (UTC)
That is the really, hugely, epicly long The Bright Lights of Disturbia. (http://archiveofourown.org/series/7424) It's very dark in spots, if I recall right.
(Anonymous) on September 28th, 2014 11:53 pm (UTC)
Hi, before I think of reading this can you tell me if it was a bottom!dean fic? (sorry I'm picky like that and I don't want to read a 60 chap fic it it's not bottom!dean in the end.) Thank you for your help. :)
[identity profile] grasshopr-molly.livejournal.com on September 28th, 2014 11:56 pm (UTC)
Yes, but it's also non-con.
(Anonymous) on September 29th, 2014 12:10 am (UTC)
Okay thank you so much for replying and for the warning.
I don't like non con. :[
[identity profile] grasshopr-molly.livejournal.com on September 29th, 2014 12:13 am (UTC)
The first chapter, which is the part you remembered, is OK; it doesn't get bad till later. But it's a *really* dark fic.

Oh, no, not you, sorry. The OP's description is the first chapter, and is fine.

Edited 2014-09-29 12:14 am (UTC)
[identity profile] kaligrrrl.livejournal.com on September 29th, 2014 02:35 am (UTC)
well, not to be too spoilery, but there's so much emotional damage from the non-con that the relationship does not reach that point by the end of the story--Sam is def. the top and Dean the bottom, but they don't progress past handjobs/blowjobs.

the focus of the story is the fallout and recovery from the non-con. it's very long, dark ride with an eventual hopeful/happy ending.

Edited 2014-09-29 02:37 am (UTC)