04 November 2019 @ 04:09 pm
Hey there, I'm looking for an old RPF that I'm pretty sure was based on the movie Copycat with one J being the Sigourney Weaver character and the other the Holly Hunter character. So I can't remember which is which but I'll say Jensen (but it could be Jared) survived a serial killer and ended up with agoraphobia and Jared was the cop trying to track down the copycat serial killer.

There is a possibility that I've got it wrong and Jensen just had agoraphobia and it wasn't based on Copycat.

Any ideas? It would be pretty old I reckon 2010 or earlier.

Many thanks
 
 

I can't find where I had this saved, but I remember this fic very specifically. - Sam and Dean are kidnapped/captured and wake up in an underground bunker-like room with one bed, a toilet, sink, limited canned fruit rations and no way out.

Found in comments! Details contain spoilers / under the cut.

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27 March 2019 @ 11:54 pm
Hi!

I'm looking for fic dealing with Dean's hell-related trauma. But since I've already read a lot of stories in the genre, I'd prefer some less obvious recs. Maybe ones that were written more recently or never got as much attention as you thought they deserved. Maybe they're even set in later seasons. As long as they're well-characterized and explore Dean's post-hell issues I'm interested. That said, I'll take any hell!Dean recs, as I'm sure there are relatively well known fics that I may have neglected to check out as well.

I'm also interested in Sam/Dean fic that is set in s4 (or later) and doesn't ignore Dean's post-hell trauma. It doesn't have to be the focus of the story as long as it plays a part in Dean's characterization and the conflict between the brothers. And while I love and appreciate protective!Sam it doesn't have to be a fix-it. I like how dark and complicated things were between them during that era so more of that would be nice.

Just no hurt!Sam/caretaker!Dean please. It's pretty self-explanatory based on my request but better to be safe!
 
 
12 March 2019 @ 12:15 am
I just thought of this fic I read several years ago and of course now I can’t think of the title or find it saved anywhere so I’m hoping someone can help me!
I know the story starts with chance encounters between Dean and Cas (Dean spills coffee all over Cas’ laptop, Cas and Gabriel steal Dean!s reservations at a dinner he’s late to, there was some kind of incident in a parking lot) and basically they hate each other. I believe for some reason they’re forced to work together or interact a lot and slowly start to like each other.
Dean was in the military but now he’s out and I wanna say Cas is a professor or author but I could be wrong about that... I know that’s not a lot to go on but I really can only remember the beginning of the story, hopefully that’s enough for someone to send me in the right direction!
 
 
24 February 2019 @ 08:44 pm

Hi, I read the summary of this fic while browsing through fic recs, found it interesting, and thought I saved it, but apparently, I didn't, and now I can't find it anywhere.It was a post-hell fic set in S6 or S7. Sam got out of hell but is psychologically damaged, Dean does his best to look after his brother, and Sam brought a hellhound from hell that protects him. Anyone?

 
 
12 November 2018 @ 10:08 am

Im looking for a fic last seem on Fanfiction.net, where Sam winds up in an alley, runs into some thug, feels like Hallucifer is about to jump out at him, smashes his head into the thugs face in a moment of panic, hears a sickening crunch, and runs back to the mktel where dean is.

Sam's barely coherent as he tells Dean what happened, Dean goes to the alley to find the thug dead, his broken nose having made a piece of bone go all the way up into his brain. I think Dean calls rhe cops once he's a fair distance away, heads back to the hotel, and lies to Sam that he actually didn't kill the guy.

 
 
11 November 2018 @ 10:31 pm

So i have one specific search and another just general. 1) there is a story which i think was on fanfiction.net but not 100%. It was deffently a teen!chester. Sam disappears when he was young and is hone for a very long time. Dean never gives up the search and with the help from the other hunters (paster jim, celeb, bobby) they eventually find him but he is deffrent. Trumatized from the abuse. John was in it but cant remember if he was helping or the bad guy. Loved the story just cant remeber enough to find it.

2) just a general search. Looking for Sam struggling lots, traumatized, PTSD. or just any story with Sam struggling with a disorder like OCD, PTSD, disability. I always prefer a weechester or teenchester story and anything with the whole gang! John, Dean, Bobby, Jim, Celeb. I love them all looking after Sammy!

 
 
29 October 2018 @ 11:34 am

So I have a couple requests 

1) Does anyone know of stories that revolve around Sam's faith? He's shown throughout the series to believe in God and angels. I'm looking for anything that acknowledges his faith. Where maybe an angel who talked to him had heard his prayers or God comments on it. 

2) Stories where Sam's developed some hobbies. Finding a hobby is a way that people cope with PTSD and depression. I'd love to see stories where that's what Sam does, whether it's painting/drawing, knitting, yoga or whatever. Really just stories where Sam develops some healthy coping methods with what his dealt with over the years — he seems like he would have researched this stuff.  

 
 
28 October 2018 @ 04:21 pm

I recently read a fic that had Sam dealing with trauma from the cage. I think it might have been curtain!fic but I'm not sure. In it Sam spoke Enochian and he was talking to Cas.  There was mention about how it was easier to talk about things in Enochian because they're talking about Lucifer and the different words for love. One of the ways they said it was translated by the author as possession, obsession. 

 
 
07 August 2018 @ 11:17 am

Request: "Sam and Dean are sleeping in the bunker when Dean is having a really bad nightmare about hell & Alastair. He can’t wake up from it and it goes on for some time. Because Dean is really quite at first, he suffers alone. When he finally begins to get more vocal and screams Sam’s name, Sam runs to help. By now, Dean is in his nightmare for quite some time already and Sam has a difficult time waking him up. When he is finally awake, Dean has a difficult time figuring out what is real. Sam tries to help. I like me some hurt Dean and brotherly moments with Sam."

 
 
Hi! This is my first post here. I am in search of recs for military veteran, law enforcement veteran Dean, anything in that realm is welcome!!

I'd really love some hurt/comfort, especially Dean being mistaken for or recognised as a veteran, by another veteran would be brilliant, him getting some appreciation and support would be awesome!!

This can be he was in law enforcement or the military or his experiences in Hell and resulting PTS being taken as a result of service. Short or long, I'm after fics that have Dean being helped and recognised.

Fics where he gets (or even gives) recognition and not pity with regards to service hit me where I live so to speak :).

- I'm not fussed on pairings but also not fussy about them if the story is good.
- Can be AU Dean as a current or former serviceman being appreciated and recognised
- Can be Dean as he is in the time after his first Hell deal, being mistaken for a war veteran/police/LEO veteran
- Can be Dean at any point with a career in law enforcement or military or similar service career
- Looking for some appreciation/recognition of service, by canonical characters or OCs, prefer Smart Dean if possible
- Someone being supportive of or supporting Dean would be loved
- Can be currently in the job
- Panic attack, pts/ PTSD, general flinching/discomfort type reaction to any catalyst that suits

Any recs that fit this type of appreciation would be welcome, even if not military or police. Any Smart Dean appreciation too!

I have gone through the tags, but am in search of whatever you wonderful folk can give! TIA!

Mods, if anything in this post needs fixing please let me know, I've tried to tag correctly.
 
 
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12 July 2018 @ 06:51 pm
Hi! I was looking for any fics dealing with Sam and Dean post-cage. Like, Sam's back but he's not the same. Particularly and aversion to touch or times when he doesn't know Dean is Dean. Sexy times are NOT mandatory, but if so, bottom Sam please. All Sam hurts with happy/hopeful endings are great.
 
 
28 February 2018 @ 08:37 pm

Hey I'm looking for some recommendations about a story which is kinda like this:

It's Dean's first summer after his return from hell. It's an unusal hot summer and even Sam complains about it. But Dean is having major issues, nightmares, flashbacks etc. from hell and is overall in a tough place because the heat just won't stop. Sam tries his best to help. (No Ruby, Cas or Slash please)

 
 
I've been re-watching recently, and now I'm on a Sam kick. I'm hoping you guys can recommend fics that hit any of the following points...

1) Sam with issues post-hell-- or from another traumatic event, the boys have so many to choose from-- dealing with these issues as he goes about his business/life, but not broken. Especially when dealing with law enforcement or on a case.

2) I'd love to see some fic dealing with how Becky kidnapped, mind-raped, and molested Sam in 7.08 "Season Seven, Time for a Wedding!" or anything containing later consequences of the (annulled) wedding itself. I'd also like to see fic referring to Toni's torture (mind-rape, torching his feet) in 12.01 "Keep Calm and Carry On". Again, not as events that broke Sam, but acknowledged as horrible and wrong for all that he overcame them.

3) Fic containing Sam being badass and confronting one or more of his (many) abusers/torturers on the show-- particularly Lucifer, Toni Bevell, Becky Rosen, Roy, Gabriel or anyone else he pushed aside his issues to work with-- not necessarily violently. Perhaps a conversation between Sam and Dean about how terrible and invasive tricking Sam into "accepting" Gadreel was.

4) Fic in which Sam draws from his experiences of torture and repeatedly stolen self-agency to relate to or encourage another character or OC.

Any crossovers and pairings (or lack of pairings!) welcome.
 
 
22 November 2017 @ 07:25 am
Does anyone now any stories with lots of mentally ill sam. Or anything were he is suffering a lot from ptsd and has nightmares or something?


Ptsd, bipola, suicide attempts is what im looking for but i prefer young boys were john has to look after him with Dean.
This can be due to anything but i love a bullyimg story but i prefer not to have wincest.
 
 
I remember that in the beginning for some reason God comes to Sam and Dean and and then gets rid of all the monsters on earth (so †hey can finally live peacefully i think?) but returns Castiel as a human because he means so much to them. I believe that they took the impala and moved into a suburb and got all their furniture from an estate sale, it was from an old woman and Dean hated (but maybe learned to love?) the couch that they got. i think Dean was dealing with some PTSD and maybe depression issues but i may be getting this mixed with another. they slowly become friends with their neighbors and they are mistaken for a couple, not brothers. Its very slow burn Wincest but i believe in the end God comes to dean and pushes him to accept his feelings for Sam.

Its driving me bonkers!! And none of my Google-Fu skills seem to be working today.
 
 
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Hello! I have a few requests I was hoping you could help me with.

  1. I'm looking for fics where Dean has retired from hunting but is not staying with Sam, Castiel, Ben & Lisa, or a new family he has made. I'm interested in reading about Dean taking time to focus on himself and his healing, free of responsibility and having to worry about his loved ones. I want to believe something like that exists and I just haven't been able to find it yet.

  2. Anything where Dean takes up fishing. If it's combined with the above request even better.

  3. Dean for whatever reason has to see a therapist and it ends up helping him deal with his trauma. I found one of the recent episodes of the show upsetting in that regard so I'd like to read something where Dean is treated with respect by a professional. I've already read Defining Normal by Baroqy.

  4. Pre-series- Dean is turned into a vampire or some other monster and John tries to deal with it. Alternatively, John is the one who gets turned. I've already read the Berserker 'verse by leonidaslion.

  5. I rewatched Faith recently and it got me wondering about the rawhead hunt Sam and Dean were on in the opening of the episode. Are there any codas about that particular case?

  6. On that note, are there any pre-Pilot fics about John and the woman in white?


Thanks in advance!
 
 
06 November 2017 @ 05:03 pm
Hello everyone! I have checked the tags and have read some good stories from those tags but I'm looking for more.

I'm looking for stories where Jensen/Dean is suffering from PTSD. He flinches when people move their hands too quickly or lean in towards him. He jumps at loud noises. Stories that have him having a physical reaction to things around him, or zoning out or actually cowering in a corner, arms wrapped around his legs and humming to himself. Basically, sort of extreme reactions. The PTSD can be a result of an accident, physical abuse, military related, having been trapped somewhere (example: firefighter caught in a building fire and trapped).

Thank you in advance for any stories you can recommend. Please no WIPs or Cockles/Destiel.
Self recs are always welcomed!
 
 
1) Dean is experiencing traumatic PTSD dreams after returning from Hell. He and Sam are sharing a bed.. I don’t think they have an established physical relationship, but Sam is there for comfort. Dean ends up wetting the bed and Sam purposely does the same to reduce Dean’s humiliation. I don’t know if this lead to anything sexual..


2) One of the boys is shaving the other’s face in a hotel bathroom. I believe it was Dean shaving Sam because he had hurt his hand. Beautifully written, very intimate atmosphere, and leads to first-time Wincest. I feel like this was written by a prominent Wincest writer. (Thought it was [livejournal.com profile] runedgirl, but I can’t find it.)
 
 
I'm looking for a fic where it's post-hell!Sam where he's not "all there" and has PTSD. Him and Dean retired from hunting and settled down, where I don't recall. I remember that their neighbors came to visit them, and rang the doorbell. Dean answered the door and was kind of trying to shoo them away and Sam came looking for him because he had a bad reaction. Dean calmed him down and the husband of the couple that came commented that he handled him very well.
 
 
Hello!

I'm looking for fics that showcase Dean's manipulative and sadistic tendencies. They don't necessarily have to be the focus of the story as long as they're included somehow.

It can be part of a regular Dean-centric fic, or something labeled as dark!Dean or Evil!Dean. That includes but isn't limited to works dealing with hell, demonhood and the mark of Cain. Basically, I want something complex that is focused on Dean and makes sense in the context of his story without transforming him into a one-dimensional villain who rapes the other characters. Rapist!Dean is the trope I'm trying to avoid by making this request.

I really hope some of you can help me with this. I'm good with gen or any Dean pairings.

Editing the post to say that I tend to dislike top!Dean especially in wincest so I'd prefer recs that don't have a lot of sexual content of that nature. Thanks!
 
 
03 September 2017 @ 11:34 pm
I folks! I was wondering if there are Sam-centric fanfics dealing with Lucifer in season 11 and 12.

I mean, I think those seasons had a lot of wasted potential and didn't deal well with Sam facing again his torturer. And also how it was so easy to built another vessel for him.

I want fanfics of season11-12 with Sam afraid of Lucifer, dealing with the trauma, maybe Lucifer playing with him, trying to manipulate him of trying to convince to be his vessel. I read a lot like that from season 5 (and I love them), but now I want them from seasons 11-12.

I don't care about pairings (except no Sam/Lucifer, unless it's non-consensual) but I want the characters to be well written and in-character. Bonus for protective!Dean.
I have no idea if I'm making any sense but thank you in advance!!
 
 
25 August 2017 @ 12:47 pm
I'm looking for fics about people think that dean is a veteran. Possibly because he has PTSD or something. Any paring is okay, but would love if it's Lisa/Dean, but would like the focus to be on Dean. Maybe he is trying to fit in a apple pie life.

Please give a description of the fic and what pairing is featuring.

Thanks in advance!
 
 
21 August 2017 @ 05:00 pm
I read a specific postcage Sam story and I can't find it anywhere. Basically, Sam is struggling with his PTSD and hallucinations post Hell. He researches ways to cope. He finds a post that says knitting is supposed to help. So he knitts whenever he can't sleep or is having a particularly hard time with Hallucifer. It's a great story and I'd love to read it again! Thanks!
 
 
05 August 2017 @ 01:36 pm
Hi!
I'm looking for a story, I think it was eventually Destiel, where a young Omega Dean is kicked out/abandoned/or dumped by his pack/John, and found/taken in by Castiel and his pack. I'm 99% sure it was a Werewolf AU, and that Dean was an Omega, or possibly a sub? I remember Cas found him outside in the snow or something, badly injured? I think John had beaten him before abandoning him. I remember a scene where Cas brought Dean to someone to be healed, possibly Ellen? I'm pretty sure Dean was a teenager at the start of the story, and that Cas was the alpha of a large pack. It was quite a long story, possibly still a WIP, and I think it was on AO3. Thanks!
 
 
16 July 2017 @ 12:56 pm
Hi,

Im looking for a specifc J2 fic where theyre in college together and in a relationship. Jensen wants to come out but Jared is afraid to. They havr a fight about it in a bar where Jared storms off. Some guys overhear the argument and attack Jensen. He ends up being very hurt and Jared hears about the attack on the news.

Jensen eventually recovers but now he is afraid to be public with their relationship when Jared has a change of heart.

Cant remember how it ends but if you know it, please tell me! I can't find it in my tags.
 
 
Is their any series were sam has asthma epilepsy or something alonf those lines. So john and dean has to baby him and look after him.

Also is there any stories were sam is tramatized and has night terrors and need consoling.
 
 
06 January 2017 @ 11:12 pm
I am looking for any fics where Sam has been kidnapped by someone and then when he is found, he has to go through some sort of therapy - physical therapy, counselling, things like having to learn something again - because of the trauma he went through during the time he was kidnapped or because of an injury. It is the aftermath that I am particularly interested in, and is why I am asking for something with Sam having to have treatment of a certain kind.

If anyone can recommend any fics, that'd be great. Thanks!
 
 
08 November 2016 @ 06:11 pm
Hello friends!

You have helped me in the past, and I hope you can help again! I just got back into Supernatural after a long they-did-what?!?! post season 6 hiatus, and am rewatching via Netflix. The bits I've gleaned about season 7 on have given me major Cas feels, but I don't want to be spoiled too much from the fics I read.

So here's what I'd like: does anyone know of fics that deal directly with trauma/depression/angst/general hurt after Cas is "dragged back to bible camp?" I adore "Needle and Thread" by Misato, and really anything that deals directly with or has allusions to what Cas was undergoing in 4x20 is fantastic. Slash (destiel always preferred!) and self-recs more than welcome!

The only specific request I have is that the fic have a happy ending!

Otherwise, do your worst! The tissue box is close by.

Thank you so much!

Quill
 
 
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Hi everyone. I'm looking for 8ne specific fic and then a sort of general type of fic.

The specific fic was Sam/Dean. They were together. Sam liked rough sex, always bending Dean over something or slamming him into walls, but Dean preffered gentler sex,he just wasn't able to tell Sam. I think they work it out. I'd like to find that story or anything like it.

I've recently read a couple of post-hell ptsd stories, one of them dealing with sex and Dean's (lack of) recovery from what he suffered in hell. I would love to read more, especially ones about his recovery and sex, but really any stories dealing with the aftermath.

I appreciate any help you can give ☺


Edit: the first one has been found, link in comments.
 
 
Looking for a fic where Sam and Dean are hunting a ghost. They call Bobby for info, and when he hears what town they're in, he rushes to join them. The boys don't remember being there before, but they were when John and Bobby were on a hunt. Flashback has a pedofile ghost going after Dean in their hotel room, because he's trying to protect Sam. He makes a deal that if he doesn't fight, he won't hurt Sammy. Dean doesn't remember it in the present, but Bobby suspected more happened than Dean admitted to at the time. Somehow, the ghost is back, maybe? I think they had to kill it again in the present. Any help? I wanna say the title is the name of the town, but I'm not certain. Gen fic, case fic.
 
 
looking for a specific fic i was sure i had kept :( dont remember title or author or even the story but it was quite long and well written on ao3 with dean and cas as fbi partners and i think roommates as well, dean suffered from ptsd as iraq/afghanistan war vet, i think they may be get married in the fic? crowley is with internal affairs and has to vet the relationship, bobby as the section chief thinks they're messing around and dean quits for like a day and everyone in the fbi, ash, victor, gabriel etc support them. i think sam is married to ruby but she cheated, and is now having a baby and isnt sure who's it is.
i really hope my garbled mess makes sense to someone to recognise, would love to find this again!!!
thanks for any help

edit-FOUND! download link in comment
 
 
Hi!
I'm dying to read again an old fic I lost and cannot for the life of me find on google
- it was eventually Sam/Dean
- teen!Sam is kidnapped, tortured and rape by a supernatural creature
- Dean and John never knew he was kidnapped
- Sam is let go by the creature with a curse written in his inner thigh (or something like that I'm not sure) that cause him to constantly seek pain and sex and to be unable to say no
- to break the curse he has to find someone that knows about the curse and love him nonetheless but he can't reveal to anyone what happened
- I remember Sam had sex with a teacher, kissed for the first time a class mate, and met Jen in a bdsm club
- Dean finds out about the curse thanks to the ghost of another victim of the same creature
ETA: FOUND in the comments

And for the general search, I'm starving for Sam/Dean or Jensen/Jared fics
with sexually abused Sam or Jared (NOT by Dean or Jensen)
that focus on rape recovery
with Sam-Jared being insecure, having nightmares, PTSD (etc) and Dean-Jensen helping him
novel-length fics are better, but I'll read everything
AU or not AU is the same;
I feel like I've already read every single fic about this topic (including all the ones I could find here) so please help me out!
THANK YOU and sorry for any mistakes: english is not my first language!
 
 
I'm not looking for a specific fic. But any fic that has to do with Dean being traumitized from his time spent in Hell or Purgatory. It could be anywhere from being nonfunctional and not able to be left unsupervised to functioning but with severe PTSD. I really want to read about the emotional, physical, psychological effects of Hell or Purgatory on Dean.

Also they can be AU in that maybe Sam gets Dean out of Hell and angels aren't involved ot it can follow canon.

Also I'm good with both Wincest and Destiel, so if anyone knows any good fics I would be grateful!
 
 
25 July 2016 @ 10:32 pm
For some reason, I'm dying for fics where Dean is sent to a universe where the canon events haven't happened, or time-travels back to when he was younger, yet he still has all his memories. Also, does anyone know of some fics where Mary finds out what the boys have been through and doesn't react well to it? Basically any fics where alternate universe or pre-series Mary/John/Sam meet canon!Dean.

(In case you want examples, some really good ones that I've read so far are:)

If I Knew Then What I Know Now:
Given an opportunity to change his family's destiny, Dean Winchester finds himself back in 1983 as his four year old self, yet with his adult memories still intact. But can he alter the events of that tragic night? And if so, will young Dean, his family, and Castiel be ready to survive all the evil that destiny has in store for them?

The Best Years of Our Lives, My Ass:
Dean goes to sleep in a motel room in Texarkana, and he wakes up 17 years old, in his childhood bedroom in Lawrence, Kansas, 1996. He has no idea how he got there, why his parents are still alive, why his brother is an adorable freshman with no memory of his adult life, and why the only ally he has in this place is the angel he left behind in Purgatory – somehow also 17 years old.
 
 
05 June 2016 @ 12:26 am
Hello SPN friends! I was hoping you wonderful folks could recommend some stories where Jensen has scars and is self conscious of them. Perhaps he got them because of child abuse, or was in the military and captured and tortured, or they could be surgery scars or due to an accident. They can be anywhere on his body. Would love if the stories were also J2 and Jared tells Jensen he's still beautiful or that he's even more beautiful because of the strength he has for having gone through whatever caused the scars. Can be gen or J2. Please no WIPs.

Thank you in advance.
 
 
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Current Location: Bedroom
 
 
 
15 October 2015 @ 07:03 pm
Hey everyone!
I'm looking for fics that deal with PTSD in depth and will eventually be J2. I don't care how the PTSD develops (sexual assault, war related, etc...). No WIPs, please. Thanks in advance!
 
 
14 October 2015 @ 10:33 pm
Hi,
So I have been looking for this fic for about 4 to 5 yrs. I have finally gotten frustrated enough to get over the fear and shyness of posting online and try and get help to find this fic. As I have only read it once and it was years ago I may be a bit vague on the details.
Anyway the fic was set during the apocalypse but Sam did not accept Lucifer and was saying no to do this Dean carved ruins into Sam's back. At the start of the story they were coming down from the mountains I think? It had something to do with Sam. Sam then saved a kid and Dean wondered why anyone would be scared of Sam. They later met up with a camp or refuge base where the others were wary of them. I do not believe the camp at first knew who they were. They bunked together in the same room and pushed the beds together but I think it was only for comfort I don't think it was slash.
Sam and dean then helped to fight the demons (?). One scene had them fighting together to show the rest of the camp how/ or what it was like and the camp was amazed at the brutal and efficient way they fought. They finally managed to kill Lucifer only the rest of the camp then thought Sam and Dean were dead as a building collapsed on them. The ending had them being seen in the mountains alive though.
From memory Sam was portrayed as traumatised and was very scary. Dean was the over protective big brother. So overall not much difference to many other fics there.
I think the fic was around or at least 100k.
Thanks in advance for any and all help :)

Ps. As this is my first ever post on LJ if I have done something wrong please let me know!

Found: Explaining is an Admission of Failure
 
 
1.) I'm looking for fics where Sam gets to observe Dean and Alastair's relationship (Gen or otherwise). Great examples of this are Amaresu's creepy stockholm syndrome fic These Bones of Mine and reapertownusa's whump-filled Through the Shadows of Hell.

2.) Fics that use a different interpretation of angels than they are in canon. For example, ones that don't take vessels, or act more in line with traditional Biblical depictions. (Meaning, I'm not looking for those AUs where angels are minor creatures on par with vampires, or Slave AUs, nothing like that.)

3.) Protective!Bobby on behalf of Dean. Somehow I haven't come across a lot of that??

4.) Preseries fics where Dean's more... Unpleasant fates/qualities (Alastair's apprentice, the Mark of Cain, etc) are hinted at or revealed, to the confusion of his family. Perhaps he's told his fortune, or comes under the effects of one of those many spells that are supposed to reveal or depend on innate qualities, or something that bares the soul. That kind of thing.

5.) Speaking of that, there's a specific fic I can't seem to find again where the boys find an artifact in the bunker (maybe it was a crystal ball?) and it shows them representations of their souls. I believe Sam was a tree and Dean was a dragon?

Gen for all of these, please, except for possible Dean/Alastair. I don't mind if they're just smaller events in larger fics.
 
 
20 August 2015 @ 10:36 am
So I'd like to ask for your help finding specific fic. The story is as far as I remember - Dean is ex-soldier with PTSD, Cas is his friend (also ex solider I think). As the story develops they start to live together and even get married and all the time Dean is in complete "no homo" denial. I loved the story and I know it's popular one - just cannot find it. Help please pretty please?
 
 
16 July 2015 @ 03:00 pm
so, i've been watching s6 again, and it got me thinking --- what if, as bobby put it, the "worst case" scenario had come to fruition? what if sam had come back as himself, with a soul, but just ... wrong? emotionally frigid, hyper-compartmentalized, or too damaged from the cage to know up from down, right from wrong?

i'm not looking for fic where sam comes back in obvious s7 type agony -- more like something canon compliant up until cas' soul fisting. baffled, f**ked up sam hearing that dean think he's a monster, aw yiss. i know i can't be the only one who's thought about this!

i would love love LOVE it if anyone pointed me towards fic dealing with this AU. anyone got info?  
 
 
I commented yesterday that I totally wasn't addicted to Post-Hell-Issues!Dean and could stop any time I wanted. I lied.


1. Fics where there is some kind of benefit to Dean's time in Hell, even if it isn't taken as one-- Demons, etc. being afraid of Dean, given his former status as Alastair's protégé; an unreasonable pain tolerance (I can so picture Sam or Bobby being really freaked out by this); using an "I've been to Hell and back" speech for intimidation (I've read a fic where Sam did this, and it was skull-shatteringly cool), and so forth.

(And ooh, what if even Ruby was on edge when it came to Dean?)


2. Given the sheer length of time he spent in the Pit, I'd wager Dean might have some trouble adjusting. Forgetting that torture isn't really acceptable topside? Having his time topside be a distant memory, so he'd have trouble recalling everything, even perhaps tingeing reunions with nostalgia?


3. I'm looking for just about any Harry Potter crossover that involves some sort of magical mishap delving into Dean's time in Hell. i.e., an Alastair boggart; an instance of legilimency gone horribly wrong; Crucio rendered laughable, etc. Even if it's just one scene in a larger fic. "Changing Circumstances" by EclipseWing did this well.


4. Okay, this one's a long shot. One of my favorite- but sadly abandoned- fics involved a Hell-traumatized Dean waking up in his teenaged body, and being unable to hide that fact from John and Sam. Another was written for the prompt, "Dean dreams of Hell. He is 10 years old." D'you see where I'm going with this?


I prefer no slash, but I could tough out minor Dean/Cas if it's reeeally good. (Dean/Alastair is okay, because I really wouldn't put it past the bastard.)
 
 
This is a weird request, I guess, but the kinkmeme got me thinking.

I'd like to read something dealing with the aftermath of a traumatic event. It can be a sexual or emotional abuse, it can be pretty much anything, as long as it focuses on the (immediate would be awesome) aftermath and it's portrayed in a realistic way. Wincest, J2, sabriel, and samifer are preferred, but I'm okay with any pairing, really. Gen and self-recs are welcome. Please, no evil!Sam/Dean/J1/etc manipulating the other.

The best example I can give is With Spit and a Prayer by Kroka-refur.

Thank you all in advance!
 
 
28 May 2015 @ 06:07 pm

Hello everyone!

I would like to read fanfictions with Sam dealing with Hallucifer.

The whumpier the better. It has to be followed by comfort from Dean though or it's not on ;)

Any rating!

Wincest or Gen, please <3

Thanks! ;)

 
 
30 April 2015 @ 10:44 pm
Hey Guys, I have two requests:
1.I'm looking for some fics that are similar to The Road Begins by ElvisRose
Link:http://archiveofourown.org/works/2410850/chapters/5332553
Where Dean already went to Hell whilst Sam was at Stanford. Castiel must be in it. So basically Dean gets sent to Hell and is rescued by Cas while Sam was at Stanford and Sam notices his brother isn't quite how he remembers what with the PTSD and all. Also if u haven't already I reccomend you read The Road Begins its so good :)

2. Any fics that Deans PTSD is featured in would be great. Be it PTSD from the military or Hell.

Pairings wise I'm up for both Gen and Destiel but absolutely no Wincest.

Thanks Guys
Xx
 
 
23 April 2015 @ 12:38 am
Hi, are there any stories about sam or dean having ptsd or ptsd symtoms and people think they are soldiers? It doesn't need to be from Hell or the Cage, I'm basically just after the ptsd part. I would appreciate some outsider pov so you can see/hear what others thinks about them. I prefer chapter stories, but it is okey with one-shot, and please give me a summery or some heads up, like if it's slash, het, gen or what character that is affected.
Thanks in advance.
 
 
I'm having a really hard time finding fics that deal with s8.

Mostly in that most I've seen give way too much sympathy for Sam abandoning Dean in Purgatory.

I'd just like to read something where Sam shows actual remorse, and that don't try to come up with excuses or make us feel sorry for Sam. I really don't want to see anything that gives Sam an excuse for behaving like an asshole, or that ignore the way he tried to blackmail Dean into shutting up. I just want to read something that has Sam facing up to what he put Dean through, without trying to make Dean the bad guy for reacting badly to the way Sam treated him.

Any pairing's fine, crossovers are a plus, and I would love a focus on Dean having PTSD from Purgatory

For the record, I prefer nothing that bashes Sam, I just don't want to see yet another story that completely ignores Dean's pain in order to come up with excuses for Sam's horrendous attitude.
 
 
I'd love a fic where Dean isn't all there when he crawls out of his grave... But that's okay, because strange things are happening around him, protecting him, and sometimes Dean thinks he can feel a strange presence... Protective/Guardian!Cas. Gen. Dean's affliction can be anything you want, but cookies if Dean is out of it enough not to be particularly concerned about The Thing, and Sam and Bobby have to pick up that slack.

Second, it would be wicked cool to read a fic where Dean actually did turn out to be one of those "special people" that can see and hear the true forms of angels like Cas was hoping.

Third! I want to see your favorite examples of great prose! Blow me away!

I wanna see your favorite monsters, too. I'd have to say mine is from Never Summer by ignipes.

Gen for all, but a little het won't kill me.
 
 
1) Past Abuse PTSD

Jumpy J1 or Sam/Dean from some form of past abuse (flinching, stuttering, anxiety)
With the other character figuring it out (h/c preferred).

2)  Social Anxiety
J1 or J2 have social anxiety - bonus for them being polar oposits socially.

3) Low self esteem


bonus for:
flinching, stuttering, anxiety, nervousness, h/c, a/b/o and mpreg.


(j2 or sam/dean) self recs are great.